It has been almost 10 years since I last posted.
Things got worse before they got better. Rereading my posts before I dropped off on posting, I already seemed to be aware of the issues and areas I needed to improve. I talked a lot about the need to quit depending on other people and eliminating toxic people from my life but I never followed through although I tried.
Life had a way of intervening and forcing me to realize the consequences of depending on toxic people. And maybe I will share those gory details another day.
But for now, I would like to share how far I have come. Everything I went through motivated me to better my life. I finally returned to school in 2016. I finished my bachelors degree in psychology in December of 2017. I started my master’s in social work in January 2018 and graduated December 2019 with a 4.0 GPA. I started working on my PhD in gerontological social work in August 2020. I am now working on my dissertation and plan to graduate in May 2024 with a 3.9 GPA. I have worked as a professional research assistant in geriatric medicine for a large hospital for 2 years. I have co-authored 20 academic journal articles.
For those that are struggling to find their way or feel as if it will never get better, I want to encourage you to persevere. Dig deep and have faith that all the pain, disappointments, and setbacks will shape your future in positive ways that you never could imagine.
If you look back at my older posts–in 2014, I was reeling from separating from my ex-husband and grieving my father who was violently murdered. As I said, things got worse before they got better. For me, going to school gave me purpose and I became passionate about helping older adults and their family caregivers with dementia. For you, your “happy ever after” might look very different. I knew I was on the right track when I felt peace, content, and passion all at once. Whatever you do, don’t quit trying.